Past, Present, Future

Right now:
I have no explanation for the fact that it’s 9:39 a.m. and I’m starving. At 7:00 a.m. I ate a perfectly good breakfast of whole grain cereal with banana slices and local blueberries. And now? Hunger. Grumbling stomach. This may or may not have something to do with the [...]

Would I get in trouble for sleeping under my desk?

I’m horribly tired and consequently in a not-so-happy mood. I got stuck in the city until later than planned last night (dinner with grad school friends), then there was a problem with my train. All told, I didn’t get to bed until around 12, and then I got to get up at 6:15 [...]

Why I need coffee

Despite the fact that I successfully eschewed coffee for about 2 years, it has sneakily reappeared on my daily menu. The following is in defence of my addiction (said addiction consists of one measly extra small cup of dark roast per day…any more is too much caffeine for me and I start to vibrate [...]

She went and did it!

About two hours ago I gave my two weeks’ notice.
I now feel liberated and at ease with my decision. It was the right thing to do, especially in light of my current circumstances (parent in hospital, 4 hours of commuting each day, boyfriend in London etc.).
My boss was very understanding and also told me [...]

Yuck.

Ew. Girl standing outside my office just imitated licking steak juice off of plate. Ew ew ew.
Although I have been dabbling in meat again lately (I blame this entirely on The Guy), red meat is still not on the menu.
And, anyway….EW.

My life in point form

-Surgery went well (thank you all for your kind wishes), but was twice as long as expected, and therefore sitting in the waiting room was the most stressful experience of my life.
-Surgery was followed by serious, entirely unforeseen complications, of which I was made aware after 11 p.m. on Saturday night, after having shared multiple [...]

Call for good vibes

I’ve come to the conclusion that ignorance is not bliss.
Since we’ve started getting more info on what’s going on with my stepdad, everything has been easier. Of course, that’s because we’ve been getting good info, but…nonetheless.
The doctors have isolated a tumour in his colon. The best news ever: nothing has spread. [...]

Further evidence of the obvious

I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m officially old and boring (well, to others. I find myself and my life quite amusing).
Excerpts from emails to Meg over the past two days:
“Yes, evidence that [The Guy} and I are old, married and boring: we spent the weekend shopping for, and then [...]

Strength from unexpected places

My boss just walked into my office and gave me a calendar of daily affirmations. So thoughtful. Today’s (very true) affirmation:
“When you examine stress-producing incidents, you always have the choice to stay with thoughts that produce anxiety within you, or to activate thoughts that make it impossible.”
Paradoxical as it is, this weekend I [...]

Damn!

I’ve taken the day off work, because the idea of 2 hours of commuting, followed by 8 hours of work, followed by another 2 hours of commuting, all while in my current state of mind was entirely undoable.
I had every intention of going to mysore practice this morning. But, overcome by emotional [...]

No words

There are no words for this. No words that can even come close to explaining how I’m feeling or all the things that are running through my mind.
What we hoped wouldn’t happen has happened.
I’m somehow surprisingly calm. I think we all knew on some level that this was coming.
My [...]

About the yoga..

The weather’s cooled off today thanks to a huge thunderstorm last night, but it was still hot and steamy and the the 40s (Celsius) yesterday. I almost bailed on practice. Not because of the weather, but because the Gay Husband and a friend from Montreal were in Toronto and gave me a ride [...]

Never been this scared

I’ve never been this scared of anything in my whole life.
I’ve been spending my time thinking positive thoughts, doing positive visualizations, but…tomorrow’s nearly here. And I’m so f*cking scared.
My mum told me again tonight how worried she is. She told me that my stepdad hasn’t been sleeping, and has been laying [...]

Well this is frustrating!

So, I’ve decided that my mat has got to go. I’ve washed it in the washing machine, I’ve scrubbed it with lemon juice and tea tree oil and everything I can think of, but to be blunt: it still smells. Oh, and beacuse of it I now have little bits of blue mat [...]